chasing and running from that one thing called love #4

"Huwag mo nang habulin ang mga taong walang paki-alam sa iyo. There are those special people who love you for you, learn to appreciate and treasure them instead" a friend from high school posted on facebook.

Kung logic lang ang gagamitin, ito na siguro ang pinaka logical na gawin. Pero, ganun na naman ba ang gagawin ko? Alam mo yun umiiwas ka na masaktan pero ganun din pala yun ending? Sabi nga, you cannot expect a different outcome if you are doing the same things over and over again. So, what now? Sabi ni Daddy D kanina sa akin, 'wag ko na raw kontrahin and just let it come if it does..kesyo I can't run away from destiny raw.

Going back to my last post, 'yun pag hiling ng signs on what to do, bakit kasi kung kailan last stretch tsaka pa biglang hahabol? Alam mo 'yun feeling na paalis ka na sana kasi absent yun teacher tapos biglang darating? Dalawang beses na yun...now, should I give in one more try? First to make three ba dapat? 

chasing and running from that one thing called love #3

What if you've asked for signs then when you had one, you still cannot fully believe it? Is it okay to ask for a second one? How about a third one? Or do you need all three - just like what they say in case of bad luck -- that it comes in threes?

What if somehow you thought of doing otherwise? Are you going to do it right away, or would you rather wait for the second and third sign?

What if still, something inside tells you to give it a try and just act on the first one?

chasing and running from that one thing called love #2

staring into nothing, trying to feel numb about what I am feeling, 

i wish that the waiting and searching would soon end

i guess it is the only way to put an end to something 

that has never started in the first place

i will close my eyes now and in my slumber

may i be granted with wisdom and discernment

to recognize answers

and may the answers lead to enlightenment 

chasing and running from that one thing called love #1

the feeling when you feel like your heart skipped a bit when you see him glance at you
the feeling of wanting to touch him, to reach for him and hug him -- but you cannot
that spark in his eyes and the smile on his lips -- you wonder if it were real or imagined
the thought of looking into those eyes as it draws nearer and nearer to yours
the thought of having those lips touch yours as you close your eyes to savor the feeling
the agony of thinking why are you thinking and feeling this way
the fear of falling into the same cycle again