chasing and running from that one thing called love #2

staring into nothing, trying to feel numb about what I am feeling, 

i wish that the waiting and searching would soon end

i guess it is the only way to put an end to something 

that has never started in the first place

i will close my eyes now and in my slumber

may i be granted with wisdom and discernment

to recognize answers

and may the answers lead to enlightenment