Sometimes life gets so blah...blah...blah...You don't have to drop names...huh, what a nice idea...funny isn't it? yeah, so cruel. As Gary V puts it...you gotta shout for joy...yeah, fine...And just when I wanna post something into this chatterbox, off it goes...this day's a big DUH!
Okay, days ago I was happy...yeah, everyday's a tiring and yet happy day. Heard some news about the great geribear. I dunno, I was just glad to hear the news about him. My friend told me that he's cute and neat (ows?). He he he... shocks, naalala ko na naman tuloy siya! Geribear is among those persons who added color to my not so colorful college life...he he he...D and DR should know! Needless to say, he's my great crush (blush...blush...). He he he...well, I was just a child then (ngyek!). Now, back to today. I just feel so tired and completely *^*%*, add to that that I feel so sleepy and overly (*^*%&$&^. But atleast, I've made someone happy (uh, am not sure if isa lang)...thanks for the stupid joke, master of deception, aka the devil in disguise. Sh*^. I hate this, I completely hate this. Maybe I should get some sleep.
Thursday, June 19, 2003
Wednesday, June 18, 2003
Sunday, June 15, 2003
random thoughts
I'm still full after eating a hearty dinner! I dunno what’s wrong with my Papa. Perhaps he’s just making pa-cute again. Well, he’s just like that, better nga na ganyan na lang siya than magsungit na naman. Uh, maybe because it’s father’s day—narinig ko na naman ang kanyang tinig habang umaawit ng mga lumang aawitin! (he he he…) Well, he’s got the voice naman eh, hmmm…bakit kaya di ko nakuha?
Anyway, I spent last night at my friend's place in Pasig. Uh well, I didn’t go to the wedding, I sent my youngest brother to accompany my Mama instead. But before I can even leave home to go to my friend’s place, I have to play the role of a yaya for the little boy (uh, not really little for he’s already eleven). So we had a night of bonding at my friend’s place, just talking and eating and watching TV with a bottle of Island Punch. D and I had a good laugh at DR because she practically drunk the punch as if she’s gulping a glass of coca cola, then she said that her head aches. We slept ‘til nine in the morning. We plan to go out one of these days and go bowling hopefully, with K.
Dropped by Mega Mall to buy some stuff on my way home. Also had two rolls of film developed, but I still have one more to bring to the photo lab maybe tomorrow, if my sched permits. I have a busy week ahead, with the board meeting set on Thursday…gotta have some rest.
Anyway, I spent last night at my friend's place in Pasig. Uh well, I didn’t go to the wedding, I sent my youngest brother to accompany my Mama instead. But before I can even leave home to go to my friend’s place, I have to play the role of a yaya for the little boy (uh, not really little for he’s already eleven). So we had a night of bonding at my friend’s place, just talking and eating and watching TV with a bottle of Island Punch. D and I had a good laugh at DR because she practically drunk the punch as if she’s gulping a glass of coca cola, then she said that her head aches. We slept ‘til nine in the morning. We plan to go out one of these days and go bowling hopefully, with K.
Dropped by Mega Mall to buy some stuff on my way home. Also had two rolls of film developed, but I still have one more to bring to the photo lab maybe tomorrow, if my sched permits. I have a busy week ahead, with the board meeting set on Thursday…gotta have some rest.
Saturday, June 14, 2003
Memories of M on Friday the 13th [June 13, 2003]
It’s Friday the thirteenth, thirty-five past eleven in the evening and I just can’t sleep. Unluckily, I couldn't connect to the internet because the phone line is not connected to the PC. But am happy now that the PC is already inside my room, I can use it anytime I like even in the wee hours of the night ‘til dawn. Well I think I’ll miss another bonding session with my college friends tomorrow. We’re supposed to spend a day and night together somewhere in Pasig, but I recall that I am supposed to attend a wedding in the afternoon. Poor me, I haven’t told my friend yet about it, but I guess my friend will be mad at me (argh!).
This morning, I woke up with a text message from M, greeting me good morning and take care. Ha ha…what a day! Since it’s a holiday, I spent more time lying in my bed, thinking about my college days with M. Well, he’s a perfect subject for the song “muntik na kitang minahal.” Corny as it may seem, but it’s true. I guess M would laugh if he reads this blog! Was it my fault that I didn’t get what he meant, or was it his fault that he never told me exactly what he meant? I don’t know, maybe it no longer matters now. We never really had the chance to talk seriously, and Jhoei told me that it's quite impossible for that to happen because I always turn him down; she would then recite a rundown of all those times which she said might have caused M to think that I practically hate him: like pretending not to see or hear anything and look annoyed when he makes pa-cute, and the nights when I snubbed him and walked away when he volunteered to escort me home after our late night practice for our play in Literature.
I never really hated M, truth is I find him cute, has a great sense of humor, talented and smart. Smoker nga lang siya, and at times sobrang weird at makulit pero okay lang, cute naman ang dating. One more thing that I liked about M was the way he touch my hair (eh, weakness ko yata yun?!) -- well, it used to be long until one day, I had it cut veeeeery short. (But now am thinking, hindi kaya type lang ni M na I-relax and hair ko o kaya lagyan ng highlights!?—shocks, kainis!). M used to call me his princess (he he he…and he’s my mother, the queen—huhuhu, bading!?), and tell me that he’s getting good grades because am his inspiration (blush...blush...). Several times, he called me at home during the summer break, but we never really talked simply because he can’t say anything (arrrrrgh, make up your mind please, boy ka ba or girl?!), and I can’t stay long in the phone with my Mama knowing that I am talking with a guy (it used to be bawal raw eh—he he he…).
M has left me with lots of memories na hindi ko na lang ilalagay sa blog, long story pa rin kung paano kami naging magka-text ngayon, but his Dad gave me his mobile phone number. Hindi nga lang kami mag-kita kasi he used to work in Davao, then he was assigned to Olonggapo almost two weeks before I went to Davao. I still don’t know if I really like to see him again, simply because I’m afraid na baka mas maganda pa siya sa’kin! (ngyek, ngyek, ngyek…joke!). So much about M, baka sabunutan na niya ako pag nakita niya ang blog ko. Incidentally, it’s Daddy Nubbin’s birthday today so I sent him my greetings through text. He’s nice as he’s always been, he replied with thanks. Uh well, at least I know that he appreciated my greeting, hindi yun wala lang, kaharap mo na nga eh di ka pa papansinin (duh!). Last night, I talked with D over the phone and I found out that the owner of the number that registered in my mobile phone’s missed call list on the 27th last month is no other than *****. I guess that guy is a good subject for a case study. Gotta sleep now, am sleepy already. (yawn…yawn…) | 12:52 a.m.
This morning, I woke up with a text message from M, greeting me good morning and take care. Ha ha…what a day! Since it’s a holiday, I spent more time lying in my bed, thinking about my college days with M. Well, he’s a perfect subject for the song “muntik na kitang minahal.” Corny as it may seem, but it’s true. I guess M would laugh if he reads this blog! Was it my fault that I didn’t get what he meant, or was it his fault that he never told me exactly what he meant? I don’t know, maybe it no longer matters now. We never really had the chance to talk seriously, and Jhoei told me that it's quite impossible for that to happen because I always turn him down; she would then recite a rundown of all those times which she said might have caused M to think that I practically hate him: like pretending not to see or hear anything and look annoyed when he makes pa-cute, and the nights when I snubbed him and walked away when he volunteered to escort me home after our late night practice for our play in Literature.
I never really hated M, truth is I find him cute, has a great sense of humor, talented and smart. Smoker nga lang siya, and at times sobrang weird at makulit pero okay lang, cute naman ang dating. One more thing that I liked about M was the way he touch my hair (eh, weakness ko yata yun?!) -- well, it used to be long until one day, I had it cut veeeeery short. (But now am thinking, hindi kaya type lang ni M na I-relax and hair ko o kaya lagyan ng highlights!?—shocks, kainis!). M used to call me his princess (he he he…and he’s my mother, the queen—huhuhu, bading!?), and tell me that he’s getting good grades because am his inspiration (blush...blush...). Several times, he called me at home during the summer break, but we never really talked simply because he can’t say anything (arrrrrgh, make up your mind please, boy ka ba or girl?!), and I can’t stay long in the phone with my Mama knowing that I am talking with a guy (it used to be bawal raw eh—he he he…).
M has left me with lots of memories na hindi ko na lang ilalagay sa blog, long story pa rin kung paano kami naging magka-text ngayon, but his Dad gave me his mobile phone number. Hindi nga lang kami mag-kita kasi he used to work in Davao, then he was assigned to Olonggapo almost two weeks before I went to Davao. I still don’t know if I really like to see him again, simply because I’m afraid na baka mas maganda pa siya sa’kin! (ngyek, ngyek, ngyek…joke!). So much about M, baka sabunutan na niya ako pag nakita niya ang blog ko. Incidentally, it’s Daddy Nubbin’s birthday today so I sent him my greetings through text. He’s nice as he’s always been, he replied with thanks. Uh well, at least I know that he appreciated my greeting, hindi yun wala lang, kaharap mo na nga eh di ka pa papansinin (duh!). Last night, I talked with D over the phone and I found out that the owner of the number that registered in my mobile phone’s missed call list on the 27th last month is no other than *****. I guess that guy is a good subject for a case study. Gotta sleep now, am sleepy already. (yawn…yawn…) | 12:52 a.m.
Tuesday, June 10, 2003
" Maybe this is part of that lifelong cycle called growing up, well, I don’t wanna just grow old, I know I have to grow up too..."
It’s June—besides the brides, with June comes the rain, signifying that summer is really over. That summer was real fun. I’d say I’ve coped with my new post quite fairly and I enjoyed the outings despite some hassles.
My weekend get together with my college friends was real fun, we kinda have to catch up with each one’s adventures and misfortunes, hang around starbucks while trying to figure out how my friend’s mobile phone got lost inside the mall. I miss that overnight at my friend’s house though. Well, we planned to have an outing but unfortunately, it didn’t push through. I also missed the fiesta at my grandma’s place last May 15. I also missed (for the nth time) that KKB camp in Bulacan, wherein Kuya Bong always invites me to join.
Also went to Zambales with some colleagues from the office. 'Twas a long trip considering the fact that we’re caught in traffic and there were 15 (including the driver of the hired van) of us inside the van. Anyway, save for some misadventure, that outing is worth remembering. Besides the fact that I had fun with my colleagues, I also had fun exchanging text messages with a dear cousin and a friend who happen to stay not so far away from where we went. I’d like to meet my friend sana, but on the second thought, I said no na lang (hmmm…sayang! He he he).
Our office’s PES workshop was also nice. While on our way, I was exchanging text messages with Kuya Jimmy, a high school pal, for it was Ate Grace’s birthday. I called Ate Grace to greet her and explained that am on my way for an out of town workshop. Well, sayang kasi I missed her party eh most of our HS friends came. Anyway, twas a loooooong trip all the way to the north, but it’s really worth the trip. Had another two nights of bonding with some friends (he he he…), shooting pix, swimming and dining. We also went to some tourist destinations up north, and took pictures upon pictures. The place where we stayed was real cozy—a nice place to be romantic, oh, well I think I fell in love…with the place…thought about going there with ***** (he he he). Also had fun sa pang-iinis sa roommate ko na si Auie. She always claim that I am sending her my thoughts because I almost always tend to sing the songs that she also has in mind—coincidence? I dunno, I don’t really understand, the songs just came to my mind; the first one goes like “…ngunit bakit sa tuwing ako’y lumalapit, ika’y lumalayo? Puso’y lagging nasasaktan pag may kasama kang iba…” Aahh, whatever! I also received some text messages from D—uh well, the poor soul had some problems, but being not just a phone call away from each other we had some long exchanges of text messages, well magiging okay rin yun—as always (he he he). I also received a call from an e-groupmate sa BBP. At first, I didn’t know it; he just said that he’s from ERC and invited me to go there for a job interview (twas not so long ago when my BBP papers were sent there by CSC, and I was interviewed by one of their Commissioners). I was completely torn that moment, I mean, I just got my appointment last February and now ERC is calling me again. Later on as we talked, I noticed that he’s quite friendly (unlike most of the HR people whom I have talked with regarding job applications), until he said that he’s a member of the BBP e-group. So that was it, we talked for quite sometime and I learned that he’s also new in ERC, and that he used to work at DSWD. Well, I told him that I still have to think about considering it because I just got appointed last February.
Also had some other walks, like the Davao trip for my UNICEF project. Well, 'twas my first airplane ride, and I really liked that trip and the place, uh well save for some misadventures again (ayaw ko nang sabihin ulit!). Our RBA training in Tagaytay was also nice, with that midnight session at the poolside (he he he). Auie also brought me to Roxas Blvd and we walked all the way to CCP and stayed for sometime at the breakwater. If not for the fact that it was getting late, I would have stayed there longer for I was feeling dreadfully lonely that day. 'Twas on the 15th last month, and I came home alone really late.
The past season left me with lots of memories, which I prefer to stay unpublished. I’ll admit that some of those memories made me sad, some even made me cry, but all are worth treasuring. It’s not everyday that you’ll meet people who will fill in some special place in your life, or perhaps your heart. Although sometimes those same people are the ones who make you sad, okay lang. Am still glad I’ve found them, some even became my friends, and the others, uh well, they’re part of an unforgotten past. I guess everything depends on how you view things. Often, you just have to look at it from another perspective. I know that I’ve made lots of wrong decisions and perhaps along the way may have hurt or annoyed other people, but it’s already done, I mean, I cannot do anything to change those things now. Maybe this is part of that lifelong cycle called growing up, well, I don’t wanna just grow old, I know I have to grow up too. What’s really nice is that I’ve learned a lot from all those experiences. Am also glad that I have dear friends whom I was able to share my confusions (millions of thanks to D, Mikee and my journal!). Mikee is really my darling Angel, and D is my partner in crime (no worry, we never do any crime involving moral turpitude…he he he…those legal jargons). By the way, I already have a new journal, which means, uh, D should know what it means. Gotta sleep now.
My weekend get together with my college friends was real fun, we kinda have to catch up with each one’s adventures and misfortunes, hang around starbucks while trying to figure out how my friend’s mobile phone got lost inside the mall. I miss that overnight at my friend’s house though. Well, we planned to have an outing but unfortunately, it didn’t push through. I also missed the fiesta at my grandma’s place last May 15. I also missed (for the nth time) that KKB camp in Bulacan, wherein Kuya Bong always invites me to join.
Also went to Zambales with some colleagues from the office. 'Twas a long trip considering the fact that we’re caught in traffic and there were 15 (including the driver of the hired van) of us inside the van. Anyway, save for some misadventure, that outing is worth remembering. Besides the fact that I had fun with my colleagues, I also had fun exchanging text messages with a dear cousin and a friend who happen to stay not so far away from where we went. I’d like to meet my friend sana, but on the second thought, I said no na lang (hmmm…sayang! He he he).
Our office’s PES workshop was also nice. While on our way, I was exchanging text messages with Kuya Jimmy, a high school pal, for it was Ate Grace’s birthday. I called Ate Grace to greet her and explained that am on my way for an out of town workshop. Well, sayang kasi I missed her party eh most of our HS friends came. Anyway, twas a loooooong trip all the way to the north, but it’s really worth the trip. Had another two nights of bonding with some friends (he he he…), shooting pix, swimming and dining. We also went to some tourist destinations up north, and took pictures upon pictures. The place where we stayed was real cozy—a nice place to be romantic, oh, well I think I fell in love…with the place…thought about going there with ***** (he he he). Also had fun sa pang-iinis sa roommate ko na si Auie. She always claim that I am sending her my thoughts because I almost always tend to sing the songs that she also has in mind—coincidence? I dunno, I don’t really understand, the songs just came to my mind; the first one goes like “…ngunit bakit sa tuwing ako’y lumalapit, ika’y lumalayo? Puso’y lagging nasasaktan pag may kasama kang iba…” Aahh, whatever! I also received some text messages from D—uh well, the poor soul had some problems, but being not just a phone call away from each other we had some long exchanges of text messages, well magiging okay rin yun—as always (he he he). I also received a call from an e-groupmate sa BBP. At first, I didn’t know it; he just said that he’s from ERC and invited me to go there for a job interview (twas not so long ago when my BBP papers were sent there by CSC, and I was interviewed by one of their Commissioners). I was completely torn that moment, I mean, I just got my appointment last February and now ERC is calling me again. Later on as we talked, I noticed that he’s quite friendly (unlike most of the HR people whom I have talked with regarding job applications), until he said that he’s a member of the BBP e-group. So that was it, we talked for quite sometime and I learned that he’s also new in ERC, and that he used to work at DSWD. Well, I told him that I still have to think about considering it because I just got appointed last February.
Also had some other walks, like the Davao trip for my UNICEF project. Well, 'twas my first airplane ride, and I really liked that trip and the place, uh well save for some misadventures again (ayaw ko nang sabihin ulit!). Our RBA training in Tagaytay was also nice, with that midnight session at the poolside (he he he). Auie also brought me to Roxas Blvd and we walked all the way to CCP and stayed for sometime at the breakwater. If not for the fact that it was getting late, I would have stayed there longer for I was feeling dreadfully lonely that day. 'Twas on the 15th last month, and I came home alone really late.
The past season left me with lots of memories, which I prefer to stay unpublished. I’ll admit that some of those memories made me sad, some even made me cry, but all are worth treasuring. It’s not everyday that you’ll meet people who will fill in some special place in your life, or perhaps your heart. Although sometimes those same people are the ones who make you sad, okay lang. Am still glad I’ve found them, some even became my friends, and the others, uh well, they’re part of an unforgotten past. I guess everything depends on how you view things. Often, you just have to look at it from another perspective. I know that I’ve made lots of wrong decisions and perhaps along the way may have hurt or annoyed other people, but it’s already done, I mean, I cannot do anything to change those things now. Maybe this is part of that lifelong cycle called growing up, well, I don’t wanna just grow old, I know I have to grow up too. What’s really nice is that I’ve learned a lot from all those experiences. Am also glad that I have dear friends whom I was able to share my confusions (millions of thanks to D, Mikee and my journal!). Mikee is really my darling Angel, and D is my partner in crime (no worry, we never do any crime involving moral turpitude…he he he…those legal jargons). By the way, I already have a new journal, which means, uh, D should know what it means. Gotta sleep now.
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