Remembering you makes me smile

Suddenly, I remember you. If you were my big brother, what could you have done with all these crap? I suddenly wish that you're here to calm me down and offer a hug. I suddenly realize that through all those years, you still come to my mind when I feel so sad. I suddenly recall how your presence defies loneliness, and how seeing you around paints a  smile on my face. I suddenly long for you once again, after years. I suddenly thank God that He made this special day, and uttered a prayer that someday, I can spend this special day with you. Thank you for being a reason to smile.